06.13.25
well, i let almost a whole month slip by without updating the blog here. there really hasn't been anything noteworthy i feel like i could share and write about here. when i don't have anything new to share with you guys i just sort of end up talking/rambling a whole bunch, which i think might end up happening today. i had all of this week off from work, so it's been nice just kind of taking it easy, even though i didn't get a lot of stuff done that i was wanting to do.
however, i did go for a really nice hike to a waterfall this week with my boyfriend. it was really nice weather and all the rain we've gotten recently had the river nice and high. the only downside was there were multiple high school/middle school summer camps out there =P annoying but at least they're outside having fun. they all showed up right as we were on our way back to where we had parked anyway, so for the most part it was nice and quiet. there was a guy who was trying to jump off from a ledge after his friends urged him on, and slater and i really thought we were about to see him crack his head open on the side of the rocks... it was a little unnerving. he ended up jumping in and being fine though. waterfalls are one of those things i don't like to mess around with, there's been so many people who've died falling off of them and drowning is my biggest fear so i like to watch them from afar.
im thinking about getting back into painting, i haven't painted anything since the semester ended last month and i don't want to let myself stagnate when it comes to traditional art. i did pick up a new sketchbook, and i've been trying to draw something every day. most of the time i just end up doing things like line or texture exercises, just things to keep my hand-eye coordination good and to keep things fresh in my mind. over time i've found out that if i go for too long without drawing i forget a lot of the small technical things first. then things like anatomy follow after... it sucks, i miss having the time to draw all day!
lately i've been itching to find new artists, it's so hard. in an age where social media is so huge and widespread it's somehow harder than ever to find artists that i enjoy or feel inspired by. when i talk about old art platforms, i try not to let myself get clouded with nostalgia but i also have to admit that it was so much easier to get inspired on places like deviantart. logging in and checking my notifications, seeing all the artists i liked posting their new works would always amp me up to draw.
now it's scrolling the timeline and wading through a whole bunch of BS on either bluesky or shitter... while there's a lot less dookie on bluesky, it's still not entirely there for me and i feel like i mostly find furry art over anything else on there, which isn't a bad thing, it's just not what's inspiring to me right now in my life. part of it is i just don't follow the right people yet, but then finding those people is such a pain in the ass. there is also the problem of i'm not really Sure of what it is that i want to see right now either. there's pinterest too, but it's so easy to get suspended by their shitty AI moderators on there and it's mostly kids reposting peoples work without credit and when you go to check the comments to see if anyone's got the source it's a bunch of people asking "what aesthetic is this?????? is this moecore? webcore? Someone help..."
one of the solutions i've found for this problem is physical art books. but that gets expensive and in our relatively small apartment it's difficult to find space for more books among the 10 trillion that we already have. i think we're going to go through some books and donate them soon, probably within the next week or two since my parents are coming to visit and we mostly have witchcraft books. doesn't really mix well with my christian conservative parents =P
work on quinn is still happening, i've got the first chapter outlined and i've started thumbnailing everything. working on a webcomic makes me feel so ...... stupid?? not in a negative way or anything. it's similar to when you finally get your drivers license after having only a permit for years, and you're driving by yourself for the first time. it's this feeling of "am i really doing this? im controlling this thing? i can go anywhere in this???" i put so much effort into planning and fleshing everything out that when it comes to actually making it, i'm sitting here thinking "wtf am i doing this right???" i guess 'stupid' isn't really the word i'm looking for, maybe 'bewildered' is a better fit. it makes me feel like a confused animal or something.
that's all i really have for you right now. i'm gonna go play some SSO before jumping back into working on all that mess that i mentioned above =] i hope you're all doing well and enjoying all the gifts that summer has to offer.
05.17.25
hi =] what's going on? sorry for the lack of entries as of late, i knew i wanted to start a new page for my blog but i didn't feel like going in and shifting everything around... lazy lazy i know. it's been a really beautiful spring here so far, i've been very busy with taking care of plants both at home and at work. my little porch garden is coming along nicely, i'm trying to grow some bush cucumbers this year so we'll see how that goes. tbh i can't wait to have actual ground to stick plants into eventually, there's only so much you can do with a porch garden. i did get a really nice shelf to put out there and it's freed up a ton of space, i don't know why we didn't think abotu doing that before.
and of course, getting pumped for one of my favorite parts of the summer... art fight! i think this weekend i'm going to focus on making references for some ocs that didn't make it on there last year. art fight is like my favorite thing ever, i can't believe i ever put off doing it for so long because i was worried i wouldn't be motivated enough for it. it turns out it's actually a really great way to Get motivated.
coming out of the semester i'm always trying to figure out how to switch off grindset mode. i still have to worry about work burnout, but i have a little more time to explore hobbies that i ignore because of school, yet when summer actually rolls around i'm always scratching my head like 'wtf is it that i wanted to learn how to do???' so i'm going to sit down and make a fun little list of things i want to teach myself this summer. maybe i'll finally FINALLY get around to opening up blender. i messed around with it a little bit a few years ago but didn't do a lot with it, so i want to try again. also don't want to stop traditional painting, i had so much fun with it this semester that i want to keep rolling with it. my only problem is that i have nowhere to put the completed works and my apartment is already small enough as it is.
i've once again been working on my webcomic, i know i keep saying this haha... it's sort of a cycle, i'll come back to it every few months and work on it in chunks before i get busy and have to drop it again. TBH, i'm a little reluctant to show WIPs because that's how i end up losing motivation to work on stuff, but here's One Little Taste for you to look at:
i had to go in and once again fix the code for the site. then i went in and looked at how i wanted to present the actual chapter, in the past i've just sort of haphazardly slapped things onto a black webpage with little regard to how things were working. now that it's been a few years since i've started working on this project, i've had some time to learn how to code a Little bit better so i wanted to go through and tighten things up a bit. so far what i have looks much better than how it used to, and i'm excited to show it to you guys when it's done. i've also been working on an outline for everything, when i previously tackled this project it was only half of an outline and i figured i would just cross that bridge when i came to it. as you can probably tell, it backfired. as of now, there are 9 chapters that are all roughly outlined (as in i have written down a vague account of what will happen in each chapter). the first chapter is halfway written, then i plan on going through and thoroughly outlining each chapter and then writing each chapter/script out as i go. here's a little vague look at the (tentative) chapter titles:
well anyhow, that's all i really got for you guys today. i hope everyone's enjoying their spring so far =] there's been a lot of wild/severe weather this past week so i hope you guys have been doing okay. see you next time!