04.07.26
okay, take TWO on writing this entry because i was almost done with it then accidentally closed it out before i could wrap things up...
first of all, i am SOOO sorry that it's taken me so long to come back to this place. there was just so many little tiny things that needed to be fixed like cleaning up the blog for the new year, adding all the backlog pieces to my gallery, polishing up some little details, etc. i just never felt like i had the time or energy to sit down and do it all in one fell swoop, but didn't want to just chip away and have the site in some weird half-finished dissaray while waiting to complete everything. but i'm back! for now, at least. things are really busy right now between two jobs and full time studies, so i'm stretched a bit thin.
what's new... what's new... let's start with all the art stuff first!
i'm on vgen now! yayyy! if you've ever been interested in commissioning me, you can do so on my platform here! if you've never heard of vgen before, it's basically a marketplace for commission artists. you can search through approved artists and place an order for a piece like you would on a storefront platform like etsy or something similar, it's really easy and you don't even need an account to comm someone =] it's been a complete game changer in terms of taking comms and i'm looking forward to expanding my offerings on there soon. currently i'm just doing icons and chibis as that's really all i have time for, but i want to open some limited slots for more full pieces and I also have some YCH ideas I'm wanting to explore. so stay tuned for those!
this last week i finally presented my senior thesis show! it feels like i just started school not that long ago, but here we are... everything went really well and people were SO kind to me about my work, it really meant the world to me to hear how much people enjoyed it. i plan on uploading some images from the show once i have better quality pictures of my work, so be on the lookout for those soon =] i still have another semester to do before i'm officially done, but i'm already starting to gather my plans for what's next. i potentially have the opportunity to get my MFA, but finding a program near me is a little challenging. the one closest to me would be an hour commute either way, and moving to the town that it's in is kind of out of the question for now because of housing prices there. it's the same situation for the programs i'm looking at that are out of state too, but i have hope that if it's meant to happen then a way forward will open =]
there's been lots of exciting things happening art wise. 2026 has (so far) been a year of discovery for me, i'm brimming with all kinds of new ideas and learning new techniques and skills, exploring new paths. printmaking has become my latest obsession and i've been making tons of rubber stamps to make patches with! plus if i can find the space in our apartment, i want to set up a screenprinting area to make things with too. i'd love to be able to sell repurposed shirts with cool prints on them =] or tote bags, etc. there's too many things i want to do right now and just not enough time to explore any of it lol.
and it doesn't stop there either, i have big plans for revamping the OC pages here on my website now that i've been able to sit down and put names on my different stories that i have. my bf and i plan on collaborating on a project together soon, involving some familiar faces... you might be asking 'well what about quinn?' (or probably not because i really do not think people give my art and stories that much thought but bear with me lol) and i do intend on returning! unfortunately, i think i burnt myself out on the project. maybe it's less of 'burnout', but i think it was more of me choking instead of actually sitting down and working on it.
my first mistake with quinn was i was so desperate to get it out there, i didn't care how it looked or read or anything. the story and art both suffered for that, so i went back and decided to do things 'right' and give myself the time and space i needed to work on it. this led to me overthinking things, becoming stuck on obsessive little details and this need to get it 'right' this time because the story and characters are so precious to me. quinn is my oldest oc (that's still around at this point) and his story is something i've put a lot of thought and work into for well over a decade now. it became less of a fun project and more of some sort of delicate restoration process that i just couldn't stand anymore, it felt like i was chasing my tail in circles trying to figure it out 'for real this time'. slowly, i've come to the realization that it's time to take a complete step back for a moment. not a break, but a time to focus my effort onto a different project for now in order to reset myself and sort of shake this weird neurosis that i have about writing quinn.
i think this new project will hopefully interest people just as much, and give me time to learn and create without stressing myself out over perfecting something so that i can come back to quinn with a clear mind and a focus on the story itself instead of making sure it's perfect. i'm currently in the process of getting the website for this project together, it's going to be a semi-webcomic format horror story that i'm working on with slater as it involves a story we've been brewing for a few years now. it involves family secrets, generational violence, and alligators...
anyways, thanks for reading all this mess and i hope to be back soon to update those OC pages and flesh them out a little bit more/make them more personalized to each character. it feels good to write another blog entry again =] i'll see you guys soon!